Wednesday, July 1, 2009 . 10:56:00 PM

Wad a day! gosh! i tink prayer dun get my pray yesterday.. today is totally a sucky n unlucky day. i believe next time i will NOT be a engineer in future, becoz it does not suit my character at ALL!!! this is wad happen!

Today is my Major Project(MP) presentation, and i have prepare my slide of wad i have done during my Student Internship Program. was excited at the beginning of time, but things does not go well when it was my turn. wad i can say is totally SUCKs! argh! WAD THE HELL!!!! WTF la.. [sorry trying to be control ,myself].

Presentation does not depend on ur attire, ur speech nor the slide. is all depend on all the shit that u do during SIP has to be great and work like a professional. WTH! with our knowledge and freshie, wad do u expect us to do in a big company?! alot of work to do which we r not familiar nor touch before?! which employer dares to pass u all the work at once when u r doing attachment using SCHOOL intern? Then i actually kanna shoot like nobody business during the presentation, the slide, the presenting, the way i going to talk and present my work was all gone to a waste. which mean that i did not present my slide at all! becoz the judges has noe wad i going to present becoz tt last batch student had presented wad i going to present and so they r not interested. WTH la! The work i did is similar from last batch student is becoz we r attached to the same job scope. but as a judges, u cant say that u heard it before and can jus skip n cut my presentation. due to time extented by other student and i have to cut short my time? is non-of my BUSINESS lor... u can ask them to present within 15mins and go, but y did u allows them to present over-time.

i cant totally blame them becoz of this.. the question they asked mi, i does not know how to answer as well, i can say i have forgt and i does not want to answer rubbish to them too, if i not clear about it. But i jus cant stand that actually i kanna insulted. it was the FIRST n LAST presentation that i had overcome in my lifetime. wa kao! my presentation was always perfect and think i m a perfect speaker to present my thing. but today, i was totally pushed down, i suppose till the hole on the floor is not enough for me to hide.

is totally an insult! jus not happy that i cant answer their question, even though i have learnt in school before. but those stuff r years before! my god! who will remember it?! u have to look through once again too before u can answer them. will u remember what u did in secondary school? the day when teacher ask u the blah blah blah question? if u noe, den i gan bai xia feng manx! wa lao! i admit my memory is no gd at all. tts y i always listen n write down wad ppl said early on, rather den listen and forget abt it ltr when i walk away. there r no one with perfect brain memory.

Jus dunno wad to say.. everything is over... jus hopefully can graduate with pass marks ba.. jus too sian liao abt studies... i tink in future i will not or rather hate to work as a engineer! coz it really makes my day bad!!!! really really bad!!! haiz... tink i scare my fren jus nw too. n thx gals for comforting mi all along.. :)

feeling better now, but still cant cure the deep cut in my heart! :(